Friday, February 02, 2007

The Daydream Felt Good

I wore my glasses today to give my eyes a much needed rest from the contacts. The glass and wire felt strange and I spent an inordinate amount of time today trying to remember where I left them.
We haven't seen the sun in days here in Empire but tonight on the way home the dark clouds were breaking up to the west and just before the sun dipped below the horizon, it emerged and winked before disappearing. Even those few seconds were a gift to someone who craves sunlight.
Have you ever felt as if you were outside your body and watching yourself go through the routine activities of your life? I'm not sure what triggers it, but I felt that way today. It wasn't chemically induced because I gave that stuff up years ago but things were dreamlike and in slow motion. It was almost like my soul was taking a break but it kept a watchful eye on my body so that it didn't wander off and do something stupid. Thankfully the nature of my work today didn't involve any sharp objects or hot surfaces.
I got a small check in the mail today. It's the first income I've ever received from writing stories. I made a copy and stuck it on my office wall. I spent a little time tonight calculating how many newspapers would have to run my column to provide enough income for me to retire early. I daydreamed about what it would feel like spending my time in deep contemplation and doing research on topics of interest to me. The daydream feel good.

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